pros::
the family stock. I like the tightening of our little family unit.
neighbors. two quiet. one ultra friendly. kayoko brought petra a hat and mittens that were tres chic.
ward family. we have had love and inclusion showered upon us. blessings.
visiting teacher. she is so warm and kind and feels like home.
ivars. love that clam chowder.
apartment. I love our place. clean, new and unapartmenty.
weather. cold? really? cold where I live? thrilling.
scenery. in case I have not said it enough, it is absolutely breathtaking.
cons::
shopping. for browsing, its phenomenal. for everyday-joe shopping, its a little rough.
unsettled. not knowing where stuff is hard for someone with no sense of direction.
friends. I miss those I have known for so long. who to lunch with? who to shop with? who to visit with?
family. at the risk of sounding cliche, I feel as though I am just part of a whole thats missing.
homesick. I am tired of this dull ache behind my eyes and in my chest. it is the sum of things that are just not home.
I have been avoiding the blog in an effort to not sound negative. iamanerd and perhaps this opportunity is wasted on me. This beautiful place and wonderful city are full of possibilities. but I have no idea what to do with them. am I brave enough to make new friends? to try new things? venture out of my house alone? maybe in time. but... maybe someone else could do it better. in the mean time, I'll enjoy the view from my window and make modest goals and try my best to keep them.
8 comments:
i'm so glad that you guys love your ward. that can make the biggest difference.
we miss and love you guys. you need to venture out and find the best shopping/eating/seeing for when we come and visit.
I know what you mean. I haven't had much a permanent home for the past year or so and by the looks of things, it'll be that way for even longer. The first few weeks are always rough. It takes time to find your niche, but you'll find it. In a year from now, these couple of weeks will seem so distant, you'll forget you were ever homesick.
You say you're homesick (and this isn't to downplay your feelings by any means), but the truth is your home is always with you: Jeff, Petra, and you. Home is never a place; it's when you're surrounded by people who love you. Sure, there may only be two, but they're the people who love you the most.
oh how well i know those aches behind the eyes and chest. but in the end the experiences are always worth it.
i LOVE that picture of petra and jeff! that right there has to make the move worth it
Well, look who I found. Chelsea, your daughter is gorgeous! And how fun that you are living in Washington. It looks awesome. I know what you mean though, it's really hard to live away from family. It gets easier though, and believe it or not, it will be hard to leave Washington when the time comes. Love ya, Jen Ray
i would worry about you if you weren't feeling exactly how you are feeling. in time, washington will become your home and when the time comes, i believe that you'll actually be sad to leave it.
it's good you enjoy your ward thus far, it's your instant connection to lots of people.
you're missed and coveted after, i hope that brings a smile to your day!
(i made a spelling error in my first comment so i had to repost. so embarassing.)
I know you don't know me very well, but Id be happy to have brunch, lunch or coffee (or tea, if you don't drink coffee) with you and Petra sometime.
Im glad you're all settled in and I hope you enjoyed the snow!
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