(the back yard at my mom and dad's house)
i have been really homesick the last few days. i think it's because we got some warmer weather, and it's not the same as an arizona summer, but it flooded me with thoughts of home. the smell of a warm/hot day, the way the air conditioner feels in my car, the sounds of our little floor fan, the welcome of tiny, slight breezes, swim suits used as clothing, all these things triggered feelings and images of memory. it made a knot in my stomach. I keep picturing last summer, and the apartment. how little petra was, and how I would run her in from the car, then run back out to grab all my groceries, and with my arms full drag 'em all inside. I can remember the way the dust felt on my feet, and how good it felt to shut the door, turn the ac down, and stand in front of the fan. I can remember getting into the store, and the rush of cold air from when the sliding doors open. such a good feeling. friends going swimming, flip flops to church, family so close, warm summer sunday dinners. that one I miss the most. every week. I never thought I would miss arizona in the summer time. but I do.
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That kind of made me glad I live here, but then I remembered the way it felt when I got in my car today and burned my hands on the steering wheel. And when I turned the AC on and it felt like a blowdryer on full heat was blowing in my face...
In reality, as much as I complain about living here, I know I'd miss it - especially family & friends (and definitely Sunday dinners with family).
Sorry you are feeling homesick. I'm not sure what to say to make you feel better, but I hope you do soon.
oh girl, i know how you feel. and i hate that familiar knot.
but just think, next summer you'll have all new memories to remember from now, about the bandaid fixation, new places discovered, new tastes tasted and new smells smelled, about that first summer away from home and how much you've grown through it.
but for now, it's ok to miss and be sad - it just means what's missed is worth it. and you're lucky to have those worth it things and places and people.
I totally know what you mean . . . when I came home last August after a semester up here . . . I didn't get home till about midnight and when I stepped out of my car it was probably in the 80s and super humid. I just started laughing because it felt so good. I always correct people up here when they say it's hot; up here it gets uncomfortably warm, not hot. So yeah, I totally know how you feel. But then I get to go home in a few weeks.
i'm pretty sure arizona misses you too.
i agree with sarah... one day, you will miss that first summer in washington, so enjoy it now in it's entirety! arizona summers will always be here waiting for you.
really? really. you miss Arizona's summers! I've never said this before, and this will probably be the only time(no guarantees)... but you are crazy. i will trade you any day. you miss the heat... i miss you.
"...the way the dust felt on my feet, and how good it felt to shut the door, turn the ac down, and stand in front of the fan. I can remember getting into the store, and the rush of cold air from when the sliding doors open..." love it.
i've tried to imagine how long i would have to live somewhere (other than here) for it to feel like home....i don't think that many years exist.
we miss your faces. but we get to see you next month! (so exciting)
love you guys.
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