ashley and chelsea
(circa ... 1988? 1989?)
my older sister ashley passed away.
I have no idea where to start. it's making me panic, blogging post... post... well there was before then there was just after. breaking that seal, what is there to say? too much. not enough. the wrong words. too many of the right words. my mind and thoughts and emotions are in a large knot. how to untangle it? I have no idea. let alone explain it. will writing be therapeutic? so many of my feelings feel so private and sacred. between sissy's. my big sister, just older than me, and myself. my grief, that is to say my own grief, is my own.
but I would be remiss if I did not say thank you, and only hope that you could know how much I mean it.
the seal is broken. I don't know if there will be more, or not. probably yes, maybe no. I don't know. it doesn't sound like it but I am doing better.
9 comments:
Chelsea. I am so sorry for your loss. I was just heartbroken when I heard the news. Hang in there. And know that there are lots of people praying and thinking of you and your family at this time.
i'm really sorry chelsea.
please write more, its good for you.
oh, the panic. i hate the panic.
my heart aches for you and yours.
love to you.
love that picture.
actually, i've loved all those pictures your family gathered... really.
her funeral was beautiful. she was beautiful.
keep writing chelsea, you're so good at it and i always feel like writing is therapeutic.
still thinking of you and your family.
oh chelsea. a phrase i think i first learned from you: words fail. but only in a certain sense... because in another sense, words do wonders. keep writing.
my heart aches for you too.
hugs.
i just stole this picture.
i agree that anything you deem sacred should remain your own. but scratching the surface of your grief while still keeping the sacred sacred by leaving your writing open to interpretation, will at least get it off your chest until the next round of panic sets in.
love you.
Chelsea I am so sorry for your loss. We are praying for you and your family.
You are in my thoughts constantly. Love you.
I'm so very sorry. We love you guys and we're praying for you.
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